Still waiting....

Okay.... Where to start.

The last week has been eventful! Jamie came home last Thursday night and we got to spend a lot of time with him! Angela loves having daddy around, and she is so much happier when we're all together, so it was great.

We had 2 false alarms for labour. Not cool! So Jamie stayed home from school Monday and Tuesday thinking something was going to happen when things started, but they stopped both times.

It is a little frustrating because I worry about him not being here for the birth, and I need Jamie to be with me! I blew up the birth pool, hoping that would get the stomach going, but nope! lol I also drank castor oil.... But no luck! And it actually, wasn't bad drinking it!

So, I have come to terms with the fact that baby is going to come when she's ready. My midwife offered to rupture the membranes today, Friday and Sunday to see if we can get things going, because Jamie will be home again on Friday this week. But, I don't know if I'm just being uncomfortable with an internal exam when it's not necessary, or if I just don't have a good feeling about it.... Anyways, I opted for no right now. If she's not ready to come out, then I don't want to put her in danger by trying to make her!

This pregnancy has been a lot easier in ways that Angela's was. With Angela, I was sick until the day she was born! That was not fun at all!! And I was really down and sad most of the time. Unless I was shopping for her! lol

This time, I loved teaching Angela there's a "baby" coming; I don't know if she understands exactly, but when I ask her where "baby" or "Audrey" is, she points to my stomach and rubs it and kisses it. I only had sickness until about 6 months, which was GREAT! So I've been pretty functional! I've organized my house over and over again, lol, Jamie is very grateful! And I've been in pretty high spirits!

I am excited for Thanksgiving this weekend - Another reason I wanted baby to come out last weekend! lol So I'd be mostly recovered for turkey! I don't want to miss the turkey!!!!

Anyhow - I am so grateful for this beautiful time of year. I think I'm going to make an apple pie or crisp today. =D

October!!

So here it is! The month of birth! lol

I am excited to have this baby. I really want to meet her and hold her in my arms. I love little babies. They are so wonderful and innocent.

Jamie has been home the last 2 weekends and I desperately need him to be with me at this birth, so I hope it happens when he is home!!!!

Every time I get excited and think something is going to happen, I chicken out and start thinking I can't do it! lol And then I remember, it's only a few moments. Angela's birth was really wonderful even though it was 21.5 hours, with back labour, etc. But the best part was I passed out when her head came through! Haha! And when I came to, I was so happy I felt good again. And then I had a boost of energy and all was well. My favorite part, was watching her take her first breathe. I know people are all corny and say "Oh, birth is such a miracle" yadda yadda... Now, the hippiness is corny, yes. However, it really was a miracle watching Angela take her first breath and open her eyes and look around at us. It was great!

So, this one will definetly be easier. I just look forward to holding her little cuteness, and counting her fingers and toes.

Anyhow, we are very excited. If I ask Angela where "Audrey" or "Baby" is, she touches my stomach! Sometimes, she'll lift up her shirt and touch hers. lol Today and sat in front of me, held my stomach on both sides and rubbed up and down and leaned over and kissed it! I often wonder how much she understands about the baby and if she knows. That sibling connection, you know? And she's still so young, maybe she remembers her from the pre-existence. Who knows!!

I will post pictures as soon as it happens! Well... A day later maybe. :)